But I’m still thankful that inspite of my childish acts, someone was still able to accept me. You’re close to perfection. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH BABE :)

I’ve been lately thinking about this person who had been part of my life for the past few years. We’ve been together for a year and a month and so. I used to love him and we we’re together as one before. If that’s the person that you’re thinking… YES. He’s the longest relationship that I’ve ever had. He’s not my first boyfriend, but I can consider him as my first deep love. I used to love him like I have never loved before. He’s my ex boyfriend. He’s a different man. I mean, you can never tell if the person truly loves you unless he’s willing to sacrifice his life for you. And he would do that. We’ve been away with each other for a very long time now. He was involved in a rape case with my Ex best friend’s best friend. I was shocked about the news that I badly wanted to talk to him. I can’t believe the fact that he can actually do that. But its too late. He and his family moved into a different place since they wanted to avoid the issue that had been a big deal in our village. There’s so many things that I wanted to tell him, that I wanted to ask him. I miss him so much. If I could bring back the time, sorry is still a word not enough to heal the wounds that I caused him to be like that. 

When I was on my way to my best friend’s place, as I was walking towards the vehicle ride outside the village, there’s a man walking towards directly to me. I can’t barely see him until he’s about a meter. I just then realized that he is my ex’s big brother. He stared at me for about 10 seconds like he’s about to ask me something. I felt awkwardness so I pretended that I saw someone familiar outside the vehicle. He’s already about to say something, but I quickly hand over my fare to the driver. Minutes passed and he’s still staring at me. So when I was on my destination, I quickly ran away from the vehicle pretending that I was in a hurry. I thought of him again. If I talked to his brother, will I know that’s the status of his life? I mean, he’s just in my mind lately. And I have to face the fact that I actually miss him so much. 

If you could read this, I want to say sorry to you. I know SORRY is not enough, but this is the simplest thing to do. I hope we could talk to each other soon. I know that you miss me too.